Christmas Eve 2010

What a day. I've had better Christmases. Why does everything bad happen at one time? The old saying, "When it rains it pours" is so true. Seems like it's just one bad thing after another. I'm beginning to feel like Job - or at least my son probably does. Poor Job lost everything - all his family (except for his nag of a wife), and all his possessions just because satan told God that Job would curse him if he (satan) did anything to him. God, of course, knowing all things, and knowing Job, knew Job would never do such a thing, but God needed to prove to satan that Job was a bigger man than he (satan) thought. Anyway, I'm off track here - Job's servants kept coming back and telling Job that he had lost this, then they came and told him he had lost that, and then lost his family, etc. etc. and not one time did Job curse God. Good for you, Job! Well, I feel like my son is Job right now although he doesn't recognize that perhaps all these trials that he keeps going through just MIGHT be brought on by God to teach him something. The problem here is that his poor mother (me) suffers right along with him and gets just as depressed. I'm such a "what if" person. I hate that. I want to be able to take my burdens to the Lord and LEAVE them at His feet. Instead, I tell Him what's wrong (as if He doesn't know already) and then I get up, pick up my sack of burdens, and walk away still carrying the heavy load.

Perhaps God is trying to teach ME something?