Paperless
Today, I decided to go "paperless" - well, as paperless as I could get. Too bad going paperless doesn't also mean that along with no paper statement coming to your house, you also don't have to pay that same bill !!!!! Of course, there's always the handfull that you just can't do anything about. For me, that involves Xcel Energy, the sewer/water, and the garbage. Xcel uses a third party billing service, which I tried one time and hated. The city doesn't have online bill pay and my garbage company is a little mom/pop organization. I got fed up with the BIG garbage company that is located all over the USA. I know they are only doing their job and are working at keeping our world a little "greener" but honestly, I got sick of the threats every time a recycleable item ended up in the garbage instead of the recycle bin or vice versa.
Today was one of those "moments" for me. One of those where you stop and stare and realize that the youngest child (in this case, a grandson) doesn't quite need you like they once did anymore. Sawyer was sitting on a swing by himself. Normally, the swing moves just a little and he hounds me to come and push him. Today though, I looked out back and here he was, swinging like crazy all by himself. He hasn't figured out how to pump his little legs yet, but he did figure out that if he pulled on the chains he holds on too, he can get the swing going by himself and actually swing quite high. I stood looking out the backdoor in shock and started to cry. He's my last grandchild (just turned 3 years 5 days ago). If swinging on a swing affected me like this, what am I going to be like when he goes to school? All my grandchildren will be in school then. I have babysat them all til school and so far none of them have bothered me except for Mallory who was the first to go to school. But Sawyer is the last. He is the youngest and there won't be anymore after him. I have been babysitting grandkids for 7 years now. By the time Sawyer goes to school, it will be 9 years total. I can't imagine not having at least one grandchild with me all day long. It will be a big adjustment for me. Even now, on a day where I might not have even one, I don't quite know what to do with myself. The house just seems empty and lifeless without the sound of a child's voice. I'm sure some people will think I'm NUTS!
Today was one of those "moments" for me. One of those where you stop and stare and realize that the youngest child (in this case, a grandson) doesn't quite need you like they once did anymore. Sawyer was sitting on a swing by himself. Normally, the swing moves just a little and he hounds me to come and push him. Today though, I looked out back and here he was, swinging like crazy all by himself. He hasn't figured out how to pump his little legs yet, but he did figure out that if he pulled on the chains he holds on too, he can get the swing going by himself and actually swing quite high. I stood looking out the backdoor in shock and started to cry. He's my last grandchild (just turned 3 years 5 days ago). If swinging on a swing affected me like this, what am I going to be like when he goes to school? All my grandchildren will be in school then. I have babysat them all til school and so far none of them have bothered me except for Mallory who was the first to go to school. But Sawyer is the last. He is the youngest and there won't be anymore after him. I have been babysitting grandkids for 7 years now. By the time Sawyer goes to school, it will be 9 years total. I can't imagine not having at least one grandchild with me all day long. It will be a big adjustment for me. Even now, on a day where I might not have even one, I don't quite know what to do with myself. The house just seems empty and lifeless without the sound of a child's voice. I'm sure some people will think I'm NUTS!
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